머리카락

 Song to live by:

They say that women's crowning glory is their hair.I've been believing that.I had thick,shiny, pin straight hair until I reached high school.It changed  similarly to my mom's.I became self conscious to the point of self loathing.I got staring and teased.I concluded that I'm not pretty.I became shy and a bit aloof unlike my elementary days.Back then I was extroverted.I was an athlete and a girl scout.I think part of that confidence I had in my elementary days was because I had a pretty hair.My hair was adored.Going back the memory lane,I was never contented in me.I wanted to be somebody else.I did everything from buying those overly advertised hair cosmetics,bought hair accessories and iron,rebonded my hair(My mom knows how much money I've spent that it's ridiculously futile),and spending hours ironing my hair.It has been a hair obsession.It has been a love-hate relationship.Today I had an enlightenment.I ordered a hair accessory that I thought would be useful.I expected it would be helpful ,it will replace my rebonding necessity but to my dismay it was the total opposite.I spent for nothing.I finally realized(though still have to remind myself  always) that either I accept what God has given me or I self loathe for the rest of my life.This hair is what I have so I'll carry it with acceptance.